The fresh graduate dilemma- where should i head to?

Since my job hunting, I have been really really blurred and doesn't know how to actually deal with myself. Speaking of which, I am a fresh graduate, finally get away from University and waiting for the call for the date of Convocation, yay?!

Nope. the stress nearly killed me instantly. This is because at this stage you need to start and send out resume and with one very very good principle, "Beggars can't be choosers". When people come and contact you and informed you that you have a chance now and please don't let yourself screwed up a big time.to come to an interview, that moment is like, FINALLY.

I have recently went to an interview with one particular company that I've heard of when I am in my second year of my marketing degree and grow to love instantly after looking into their project, and I....screwed up a big time. I am not going to lie, I feel bad, really bad. Like the clock is ticking, your parents, your siblings and your friends are all waiting for you to get a decent job and you basically sitting there hanging. HANGING ON THE DESPAIR OF THE FIRST EVER SCREWED UP INTERVIEW, and hahaha it's felt like i am dealing with a bad breakup.

Then i looked into myself in the mirror. Are you going to give up because of rejection. No. I realized I need to look into myself and analyze why i fail miserably in the interview. I'm nervous. I didn't prepare well enough, I glamorize the world a little bit. Basically i forgot the spirit to hold on something I really want like i did when i first started my marketing degree after i change my course from another subject. I realized that rejection is not something you should afraid of, you will eventually grow up and learn how to deal with it with a smile and move on. My godmother told me that  I should actually avoid talking to negative people and rise and shine, to which i totally agree.

I used to be so confident and even proud to use my ever broken English to speak to a English educate students who used to tease me. That crazy confident and the hope I once sees in myself actually left buried and i shall dig them out and start finding the direction to lead my way out. The question is, Should I go for anything and start working, should I? Well, now i am giving myself a time line.

So, I need to upgrade myself. Lose some excessive weight ? Check. Wear braces to improve my smile? Check. Read more and Improve my command of language. Double Check. I stumble into some sites showing Lion King's snapshot, " You either run away from mistakes, or learn from it. " So, I decided to choose the latter. Chances are always given to those who have prepared.

I learn that to talk to the right group of people is very essential. the right group of people will help you analyze and make you feel better and at the same time, indirectly motivated you to be a better person, or the person you want to be.

God Bless You All.